Bark

Ehhhh...

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 18:30:49 GMT

For every moment of every day
I wish some things to go away,
yet I wish some things to stay,
for every moment of every day.

People say they understand
this life, this master plan.
Forget that notion, forget it all,
better to forget than fall.

For have you ever seen
a world beyond mere dreams?
A world, a place, an ever home
a place to which is never known?

For it is as I can see
the world as it is meant to be,
off beyond the mistful trees,
for it is as I can see.

Be not cautious in every turn
for flames can and will always burn.
Whether safe or whether not
living life is all you've got.

Make to it what you please,
see the forest or the trees,
see beyond as I know I do
just be who you were meant to.

For every moment of every day
I wish some things to go away
yet I wish some things to stay
for every moment of every day.

Copyright © 2006 Bradley Leonard

Poem #09473817592

Tue, 24 Oct 2006 15:09:06 GMT

So I originally titled this poem, "Where's my LSD?" However, I am currently thinking of changing the title. While you read this poem it will be no wonder as to why I titled it as I did. If you can think of great title please let me know, I am always interested in hearing about great ideas.

So here it is, titleless:

Time and time again
I look out to the end
the end of time floating by
on a pony in the sky.

The water green, bad to drink,
water flowing from the sink.
I guess, oh guess, I should run
drinking water, so much fun.

But run I can't, not on glue,
damn those words that stick to you,
and your glue, not my mess,
stuck up in this dragon's nest.

And I can fly, nope just fall,
now I wish I could after all.
But I fall, up not down
wait, which way to the ground?

The thump I felt, but never came
shoot these ladders, screw this game.
Roll the dice, but miss my face,
god I really hate this place.

Or maybe I really love it here,
god I could really use a beer.
I normally am not a sacredly cat,
but walking trees and baseball bats

make me wonder, now I am bread,
and you thought I lost my head.
Nope I'm a bird, see me fly
or fall throughout this mixed up sky.

Damn I’m falling yet again
when will all this really end?
Wait I see the falling ground,
but if it’s falling where am I now?

Damn this place really itches,
stuck in cracks and in niches
or on crack, I don't do drugs
unlike Smokey, my bear skin rug

Who talks to me late at night,
when the sun is burning bright
and leaves that dot on my eye
stupid dot should die die die.

Ok, great great great, it ran away,
what did run, I guess I'll say,
eye and pen do not mix,
stupid rabbit has my tricks.

I can do tricks out of my hat,
there's the rabbit, now where's my cat?
Now a trick I will do
saw that rabbit right in two

Stupid rabbit, what a mess,
damn this stupid dragon's nest.
I guess, I guess, I'll fly again
where I land it all depends

On what I came to eat that night
wait 30 minutes before your flight,
or drowning will possibly occur,
stupid fish with all that fur.

Wait a moment, this water's green,
what does all this really mean?
I can only think of Reston
as the world to rhyme with lesson.

And a lesson here we are to learn,
play with matches, water burns!
Matches are loads of fun
like a mini burning sun!

Don't be fooled that's just a stick
as that rabbit stole my tricks,
but the rabbit is now rabbits,
he won't attempt his nasty habits

well, he won't get to anymore,
stupid rabbit, no where's that door.
I want to go, I want to leave,
like the thingy from the tree.

Damn oh damn, I lost my head,
bed, dread, drum, said, and red
they all rhyme without the drum,
drinking water, so much fun.

See, drinking water, so much fun
without feet I cannot run.
Water flowing from the sink
color green means bad to drink.

And on a pony in the sky
the end of time floats on by
so I look out to the end
time & time & time again.

Copyright © 2006 Bradley Leonard

Peace

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 16:36:46 GMT

Yo.

I have finally done it and did a myspace page. The address is http://www.myspace.com/alpinefreshness if you feel like going and checking it out. Anyways, that is all I wanted to say. Oh yeah, I plan to post things there too!

Peace

Fri, 24 Feb 2006 23:20:34 GMT

Your Homicidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Plastic bag

Your Favorite Target:

Women

Your Kill Count:

1,051,340,654

Your Battle Cry:

"I enjoy cheese."

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$176,628,346,951,595

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 54%

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Fry those eyes!!!

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 19:56:06 GMT

Hmmm...

I haven't posted in this thing for how long now? I don't quite know where to start with a new entry so I guess I'll start with recent things.

On Friday the 27th of January, I had my surgery at approximately 5:50 p.m. that evening. Now people are going to wonder as to excatly what type of surgery I had, so I am gonna tell you. I had laser eye surgery done. Ok, now there are the people out there who are probably going on about how laser eye surgery is nothing, a piece of cake, but let me tell you how it went for me. The monday before my surgery, approx. 5 days, I had a pre-operation exam to test my eyes to see if I could even get the surgery done. The exam went well and I was scheduled in the upcoming Friday. Well, I thought it seemed a little soon, especially since I wasn't quite prepared for such an operation. Well, the following days came by quickly, though they seemed to creep along due to classes and the inability for me to think of anything else other than getting my eyes fried. So finally Friday came. I found it suprising that I was unable to call any of my friends, especially since I was freaking out. Talking with my girlfriend she offered to take me so I would not have to do it alone, which was a huge relief. When I got to the clinic I was so worried. These are the reasons why: The doctor told me that most surgeries go without complications but that about 1% of people who do the surgery never reach perfect vision, and to make it more frightening that imperfect vision could never be fixed by surgery, glasses, or contacts. Next, I was told that if the cornea heals improperly after the surgery I could damage my eye permanently and either see incorrectly for the rest of my life or be blind. The doctor then listed off tons of other things for me to worry about, to add to the fear of getting my eyes fried. So finally the moment came after sitting in the waiting room for an hour. I made my way to the back room where they put a little blue foot covers and a hair cover on my head. Now, just to note, if you have problems with eyes, I would not recommend reading any further. I laid down on the exam table where the doctor performing the surgery numbed my eyes. At that point he covered one of my eyes and proceeded to working on the first, being on my right. First the doctor tape my eyelids open for my right eye and then used a clamp to open them further. The doctor then place a round thing on my eye, which is hard to describe as I could not see all to well. Whatever it was it applied pressure to my eyes that felt akwardly weired and then made my vision go black. I think that it was the incision on my cornea. While everything was black the doctor the used something that vibrated on my eye, which I think was to clean it. After that the pressure was released and I could see again. That part actually was the most uncomfortable. Following this, my eyes was rinsed with water and then placed under the laser. The doctor at that point told me to focus on a flashing red light. Being told everything that was happening I was not suprised to hear the laser turn on. The laser did not hurt one bit and nor did I feel any pressure from it. The only discomforting thing about the laser was the smell of my eyeball being fried. And boy could you smell that eye fry. Finally, I was pulled away from under the laser where the doctor cleaned my eye, which was weird as it looked as if he was cleaning my glasses because I could not feel it on my eye. After that eye was cleaned, the clamps and tape were removed. Now, the other eye needed to be done. Each eye only took about 5 minutes to do and the laser was on the eye for less than a minute of the time. Once I was finished with the frying the doctor inserted plugs into my lower tear duct, which was weird and ticklish. When I was all done I was given my eye drops and such and sent on my way. The first five minutes after the operation I could see with a layer of fog over my eyes. I left the clinic and by the time I got to the car I could not longer open my eyes because of the discomfort. If it was not for the wonderful Ashlie I would have been screwed since I could not longer see. When I got home I tried to sleep, which wasn't easy. All in all it took about 6 hours for the discomfort to stop and for me to be able to open my eyes again. The next morning when I awoke I was suprised to see that I could SEE. I got ready quickly and went to my with 24-hour post operation exam. They told me that my eyes were healing nicely and that, after an exam, I could see 20/20 in both eyes and when my eyes worked together I could see 20/15, which kicks ass since it is better than 20/20. Happy with the results I now need to add drops to my eyes all the time. A steriod and antibotic, along with saline every 4 hours I am awake for the first week and continue with the saline every hour till my next appointment approx. 2-3 weeks from the operation. I also have limitations about what I am allowed to do and I have to where shields for my eyes when I sleep. All in all it is not too bad to have good vision without glasses or contacts, yay!

So that is my lengthy detail of my surgery. I may update later but I see no point as since I stopped for the longest time, I highly doubt anyone to read this. Well, if you do COMMENT! Laters all!

Dreaming while awake can lead to starteling results...

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 02:48:11 GMT

"So much"

So much to dream about,
so much to think,
millions of thoughts
into each blink.
And they grow longer,
sand fills their core,
till those eyelids,
can be held open no more.

And what shall thy dream,
for dreams shall come,
an explosion?
a wizard?
or a time undone?
Maybe those thoughts
that rest in thy head,
will take a notion then motion
and follow thy into bed.
Then stories will come forth
some good and some bad
some happy, some strange,
and of course some so sad.
With so much to dream about,
one can't rest thy mind,
for to sleep is to stop;
to be left behind.
So forward thy movement,
forward thy dreams,
forward thy hopes
thy love,
by whatever the means.

For dreams shall come
one
by
two,
as they always will come,
this
ye hold
true...

Poems

Sun, 29 May 2005 03:15:36 GMT

I am glad to see that some people actually read my livejournal. Here are two new poems of mine for those lucky souls to read. Tell me if you enjoy them:

"Maroon Night"

Sometimes through the winter night
cascades a maroon blizzard sight
and within hope, within choices,
fighting life and those voices,
one can see this maroon light
off throughout that winter night.

Falling snow,
twisting wind,
where does all this end, begin?
Prints of feet,
frozen down
upon the snow, upon the ground?

Each snow flake is a tale,
each their own imprinted scale,
they speak and shall forevermore,
they speak to speak and nothing more.
And why is the winter night,
blanketed by a maroon blight.

Red, the snow,
falling fast,
it will fall, it will last.
The color seen,
but unknown,
is the color, ash and bone.

Tales come,
tales go,
what of this tale?
not...

------------------------------

“Dead Man’s Walk”

The tick and tock slowly beats,
its rhyme into my head,
and if I knew its meaning true,
then time would never tick;
but for now I just walk dead.

For down that dirt made path
I walk a dead man’s walk.
I cannot breath nor can I leave
this place of whispered hate,
while the wind behind me talks.

It tells me of my life,
it whispers off my fate,
it follows me for this eternity
I just cannot escape;
this place I come to hate.

I condemn each step I take,
yet I take those fateful steps,
and with everyone it all comes undone
the weaving of this world,
to which I shall regret.

This dead man’s path wont end,
my eyes see the path go on.
I can not quit nor forfeit,
nor win, nor lose, nor try;
as life can and can’t belong.

The tick and tock to which I spoke
beat on and louder grow,
will it cease brining peace,
upon my pulsing skull?
Oh, not a soul shall know.

I still ponder what they speak,
and why they speak to me,
there is no sense in this mess,
for at least that I can concede,
as I walk this eternity.

As for now I leave this tale
of worthless and self worth,
for when it ends it comes again
to another soul out there,
of one of true life’s birth.

So heed thy warning well,
for it again I shall not tell,
for when undone the world becomes
time will cease its tale,
and then you shall see hell.

Wed, 25 May 2005 14:37:50 GMT

I’ve been thinking, I would update more if I knew people actually read this journal. So all I am asking is for people to leave a comment saying they read so I can tell if I should update more often or not at all. Just let me know you read!

That's Right...

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:23:58 GMT

You scored as Pissed at the World Cat. And here we have the next serial killer. Try having some cotton candy, it'll make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside, Psycho.

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Pissed at the World Cat

100%

Drunk Cat

67%

Couch Potato Cat

67%

Derranged Cat

50%

Ninja Cat

50%

Love Machine Cat

33%

Nerd Cat

17%

Which Absurd Cat are you?
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Poems...

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 23:08:46 GMT

"Tu Hue"

Step by shadows, black from blue,
world fades into a crimson hue.
Knowledge sought, nothing known,
darkness seeps from ash and bone.
So the answer is the question,
failing message, lesion lesson.
Yet more question, nothing more,
nothing left of to abhor.
Through the rain and the tears,
through the rage of many years.
Life's a journey, so know it well,
that knowledge is a strength in hell.
For two different are in turn the same,
inside and outside of their name.
So to know life fear it not,
never quit, never stop.
Fight off with last breath blue,
off into that crimson hue.

***

Nothing less is nothing more,
nothing here and nothing for.
So with nothing in and out,
is what life is all about.
Not this message, but the fact,
now there is no way back.

***************************************************

"An Utter Chance"

Through an utter hope of chance,
people sing and people dance,
people rejoice and people cry,
people live, yet, others die.
Now through a simple question
behind mistakes, lost indecision,
why is fate a fickle thing,
in which people dance and people sing?
And through love is loving hate,
always out to amelorate...
Yet these people take a chance,
to sing, to love, to hold, to dance.
They don't fear that mortal end,
for thier fate they twist and bend,
and that is the lesson taught,
in hopes to live, to find to rot,
but just dance, in a chance sing,
to undefine everything.

*********************************************

And for something completely different:

Things that are hard to say when you're drunk:
obsession succession luxury suspicious consumption

Things that are REALLY hard to say when you're drunk:
condemnation microscopic confrontation platonomy spectacular

Things that are down right impossible to say when you're drunk:
No, of course I don't want to have sex!
I think I'll go home now, it's getting late.
No, I don't want anymore beer!
Please don't kiss me, I don't even know you!
No I couldn't possibly sing, I'd be too embarrassed!

As it was once said, "Make like a tree and BARK!"

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 03:40:33 GMT

I thought I would give a quick update before I crash as I have been up studying for a test tomorrow. Well, as always life is GREAT!!! I found that in a months time I will be getting a raise at my job, and it kicks ass cause it will be about 4 dollars more than what I am making. I will pull about a grand a paycheck, or approximately 2 grand a month, which will kick much ass. So as one can see, that kicks ass. Pat’s birthday is coming up soon and I already know what I am getting him, amazing that I actually put thought into more than one day in advanced. So I am glad I am getting to see more of my friends, but I am soooooo happy with Ashlie right now. I don’t think I added enough o’s. Anyways, not much is going on other than that.

I love Ashlie more than I ever thought I could and more than anyone I ever though I was. But I think that must be because she is a wonderful person and comeon I mean it’s Ashlie, duh!

So yay for life being good. Call the cell if you ever want to hang out, oh, and Gary, sorry I have been really busy. We will find time to chill, we will dammit. So if you want to do something then call me or stop by Tyson’s Mall Friday, Saturday, or Sunday, or all three if you really want to anytime between 7:00 and 15:00 and call my cell when you get there and tell me where you are and then I will find you.

So up up an AWAY!!!

Oh yeah, by the way… alcohol is fun, and you know what is more fun than that… being able to buy it!

I guess I never really thought that life could get this good!!! Thanks to everyone: esp. Ashlie!!!

Moot, or was it Woot?

Wed, 30 Mar 2005 00:01:35 GMT

Yay for Ashlie!!! I know everyone is sick of hearing about it, or maybe not since she is a wonderful person, anyways, I thought I would start this update with the one thing in my life that I love and adore more than all others. So onto other things, such as the proper way in which to kick a fluffy bunny. So life is good exclamation mark exclamation mark exclamation mark… woot! Isn’t woot such an interesting word… woot! Well, there is not much to update about over at this end, I just think that OTHER people should update their journals more often, and I can’t order them to update if I don’t. That would make me a hypocrite, and no one likes hypocrites, NOT ONE BIT. Well, I am going to go help Ashlie at work and get a whistle pop for helping out… YES, a WHISTLE POP. I love her soooo much!!! So I hope all is well with you all. Laters… Peace…

I feel good.. du nu nu nu nu nu... so good... do do...

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 21:59:59 GMT

Ok, so here is the rundown of past, present, and ‘possible’ future events:

School is school, blah. Well, not really. But as everyone who is normal knows, school can just be tiresome and an annoyance at times. But anyways, school is actually going quite well. I am coming up towards the end of my spring break and wish, oh wish, it would last longer. I have had the most amazing spring break thanks to someone I know. Ashlie and I decided that we wanted to get the hell out of dodge for a couple of days during spring break to try to relax. So after scheduling work and such we decided to head out to Harpers Ferry for a while. The trip was just awesome. I had a most amazing time and wish I could do it again. Anywho, if you want to know about the trip feel free to ask. I don’t have many pictures but I will post the ones I have later. So work is GREAT, but nowhere near as great as Ashlie. I actually HAVE and job and what is more important than that is that I… have a job… but I really like it too. It is great, so as always, if you are bored or on your way to Tysons Mall, hit me up while I am working. If you want to know when I work or even where I work at Tysons Mall, once again, ask and I will tell you. So school and work are both going well, and the EMT thing is great as always, but once again nothing is as great as Ashlie! So now onto possible future events: Well, one plausible event is that due to the Saint Patty’s Day Holiday, I will most likely get drunk tonight, but not too bad as I have work tomorrow morning (stop by and see me). Another possible event would be the covering of my hickeys before I venture to work. Tee hee hee. Not like you all needed to know that or cared for that matter. So there are other things I look forward to in the future: friends, family, Ashlie, work, and even school. So here’s a cheer for when you down that beer and may your toilet always be near!

Happy St. Patrick’s Day Everyone!!!

Now off to find Irish drinks for tonight…

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 05:24:24 GMT

Time for a new update... So, I could go on about all the great things in my life, but I think I will start with the one that puts the greatest smile on my face... Ashlie! Well, she does. I love her more than anything, but since we all already know this since I won't shut up about it I will talk about the thing that comes in second place to putting a smile on my face, and that would be... I QUIT WORKING AT THE RAINFORST FUCKING CAFE!!! God, that place really annoyed me and I wanted to get a new job, much thanks to Ashlie for always being the voice of reason. So on that note: everything worked out (both extensive background checks and the drug test) and I finished filling out paperwork, so I got a new job!!! YES!!! It makes me incredibly happy to be rid of that hellhole and into a new place which seems great and can lead to many great possibilities. 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****************Oh yeah, and by the way, most of those yays were about Ashlie!!! YAY!!!!!!

"Timeless Life"

Time will always tick
as so shall the morning come,
but what happens when it all changes,
and it all becomes undone?:

To wake to a morning night,
to not even wake at all,
to stand, to sit, to upside-down,
being right would mean to fall.

Sense would stop as senseless,
movement would not move,
a choice with a million options,
would not be allowed to choose.

The sky would be walked on,
as it would be the ground,
silence would not pound pressure,
as it would be a high-pitched sound.

Air would now be water,
and you could swim through the air,
yet you would not need to breathe
as the body would not care.

A breeze would be so warming,
the hot would now be cold,
you would know amazing things,
that were never told.

Slumber would be walked on,
your dreams would become real,
pain would be the best pleasure
that you could ever feel.

All of this is nonsense
so why speak another line?
Yet, don't dismay the meaning,
found in this deranged rhyme.

*Untitled*

It is at home, no way alone,
no matter the stormy night.
For the chill, can't match the will
of love so strong, so right.

Through loving ease
one can breathe,
and that is the message spoken.
For the heart,
is thus the start,
and that is life's great token.

So when in doubt,
no need to shout,
for take a calming breath,
and when right,
that fate filled night,
the soul can truly rest.

Then the sun,
will timely come,
and rise high without clouds to hide.
And within peaceful time,
no more need to rhyme,
for two souls awaken side my side

is thy rue true?

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 05:34:48 GMT

"rue"

Stirring moment, one by two,
blanket covered riddled rue.
Time ticks on, plays its beat,
life's soul and heaven's treat.
Stirring from an avalanche
to corral from sleep's ranch.
Beeping seeps all about,
inside, outside, in and out.
Dimly lit on the world's plane,
just so, lights gone insane.
Yet outside windowed world
is the sky thrown and twirled,
falling down and falling fast;
a thousand plays, a billion cast.
Ah, snow, it looks so kind,
a heavenly world; hope to find.
It spins, it flies, mingles and twirls;
it jumps, it falls, blankets, and swirls.
It relaxes the soul, the world too,
a blanket covered riddled rue.

Yay for wonderful weekends, yay for Ashlie...

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 06:08:48 GMT

Yay for posts...

Arg, Mondays suck! But for most people Mondays suck. I mean, it is the beginning of another week. And especially after a wonderful weekend Mondays horrifically suck. Now on the topic of wonderful weekends, I spent an amazing day out in the country near Baltimore. I got to go see Ashlie's grandparents and the extended family of her Dad's side. It was the most bestest. Her family is so great and I am happy to have had to opportunity to meet them, plus from where we were I could see Pennsylvania. It was so wonderful and it really did make me miss the country. I got to play with goats, chickens, and geese. It is soooooo nice. Ashlie accidentally got headbutted by a goat, whom won was hard to say, but I got to play EMT and make sure she was ok, go me! And I got attacked by a goose. I found it so funny. It started acting mad at me and making loud noises and then when I got closer it started to bite my legs (which didn't hurt one bit) and then I chased the geese cause they are fun to chase. They also had ducks which were raised from eggs so they were freakishly tame. So yeah, that is my ramble of a great weekend. And I also got to spend a jinormus amount of time with Ashlie, which always puts a smile on my face. She is soooo wonderful. And I saw Patrick and Nancy and Chanda and we all talked and Nancy told me some of the most amusing news I have heard in awhile. So woot, I just keep rambling. Well, I should get to bed as I have class tomorrow and if I am lucky another background check. So yay! And in reference to that background check, I got a new part-time job!!!!!! They hired me before I even interviewed with them and then they told me that I would need to do two different high-security background checks and a drug test, woot for being an EMT. After which I could start working and I would be pain around 13 dollars and hour and working 24-40 hours a week, how ever long I damn well choose. And what makes this all the better is that I get to quit the Rainforest Hell Hole...YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

So school is going well. I was starting to worry a little bit about one of my courses, but Ashlie pulled through for me and helped me study and learn all the material needed. So now I feel more smarter. So far I am getting all A's and B's, but mostly A's. So here is to keeping my grades the way they are.

Rachel: I hope your weekend stays with you all week as mine will, which makes the week go by faster. But that is mainly because your mind is still in the weekend and not the present, or in my case on the floor being scoopded into my heads.

So as I said earlier. Mondays suck, but when mixed into such a great time and a great life, they can barely dent the way I feel... which right now is loved, beloved, and sleepy. Sweet dreams to all and I hope happiness for everyone of my friends, everyone I love, and everyone who by chance happens to read this.

Yay for her smile,
and yay for her love,
god, she's the person,
I've always dreamed of.
And if I may say,
god, you sure know the way,
to take a little sun from the sky,
and tuck it away,
into her smile
and into her love,
god, she's the person,
I've always dreamed of.

Life is good, Life is great, I love that person: my soul mate...

Sun, 13 Feb 2005 19:41:54 GMT

I feel that I owe an update as it has been a little while. Things are going well right now. My life seems to have calmed down while still being a little hectic. As everyone should know from my last posts, I am still going to college… woot the fun! Well, sometimes it is. But, I am enjoying life right now as much as I can. I really want to quit working at the rainforest hell hole since it is a bullshit job, but before I do that I am still in the process of looking for a new part-time job. But on the subjects of jobs, I do have an interesting temporary job. It is with an Agency, which one I shall not say, and they will call me up with an assignment and give me all the details about it, and then ask me if I would like to take the assignment… no joke! I recently got employed with them and it looks like a most excellent job, but that is all I am allowed to say on that matter. So as one can see: full-time college, part-time job, temporary job, and volunteering as an EMT makes my life a wee-bit hectic, and that does not include my favorite time, which is spent with Ashlie. And speaking of her… I am so incredibly happy with Ashlie!!! I will not bring up the past but to all who know, to have her back in my life is the greatest thing I could have ever asked for or wanted. She truly makes my world spin round. So, weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Life is good, though I have not seen as much of my friends as I want to, but I will change that and start harassing them with a bombardment of phone calls. Anywhos I am off to accomplish tasks and tackle today, though it is a relatively easy day. So now to shower, shave, and get nicely dressed for a fantastic evening with Ashlie… there is nothing more I could have asked for than this. Well, except for like a billion dollars, but that is a-whole-other matter. Peace all...

Understand?

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 02:31:51 GMT

Yay for confusion... do you understand? Tell me what you think it is about!!!

"Understanding Life"

Winter flame, desert ice;
unknown of the chilling price.
Water fails, mist succeeds;
only when it truly needs.
Thus is false, how-bout true;
darkened sky, crimson hue.
Life is this, in and out;
this is what it's all about.
So why speak in riddled rhyme,
failing sense line after line?
Think of trees, peeling bark,
looking past the lightened dark.
And in tales, stories made;
journeys won; these won't fade.
Peering, fearing, look away;
sometimes shadows shall not stay.
Under covers, hey undercover,
luck to chuck; four-leaf clover.
Needing luck, thought absurd,
something though always heard.
Kick the bucket, throw the hay;
'hey' or 'hay', sense flies away.
Fleeting, beating, sharpened knife,
quickly understanding life?
So now to end, then to begin;
so understanding from here within.

Interesting...

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 03:51:29 GMT

Moo is all I ask...

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 23:49:19 GMT

You Are 22 Years Old

22

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Life...

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 06:41:27 GMT

Oh, how I do owe an update to my journal. I think that I am trying to use my livejournal more to update about my life, though I still plan to post the plenty poems that I write. So how is life for everyone? (And feel free to answer as a comment, as it is always good to know what is going on with people.) I am enjoying my last week of winter break before I start classes at George Mason University. I have really enjoyed this break more than I ever could have imagined, and that thanks is due to Ashlie. I would like to make sure that all my friends (esp. Pat, Lear, Nancy, Katie, Harley, Sham, and so on) and my family (much love to Rachel) for also making this break the enjoyment it was.

My sister left again for college. It sucks having her leave as we have so much fun chilling together. I hope to see her soon but I know that she is off doing something with her life which is most excellent. Last Friday I got to go out to dinner with my sis, Ashlie, and two of my sister’s friends (Mary and Caitlin). We were all just celebrating college and more so friendship and the time we have together. It amused me to be the only guy out of five, and as we all were dressed up I felt like I was pimping, though I knew I was not. Actually, I am very happy with Ashlie, but I will type more in a little bit about that. So dinner was great, we ate at the Melting Pot which was excellent food and it cost us all less that we thought. So I miss my sister and hope she is doing well. Much love to her!

So I will be starting Mason on the 24th of this month and am a little weary as it is going to be new to me. But I am look forward to it. I unfortunately did not make it to Indonesia to help out with the search and rescue efforts. I really wanted to help but there were several reasons as to why I didn’t go. This Thursday (the Inauguration) I will be putting the Ambulance at our station in service with a group of volunteers, and then we will most likely be heading into D.C. to provide Emergency Medical Services if they are needed. Hopefully there will be no threat and all will go well.

Now on to other important things in my life, as I said earlier I am very happy (ecstatic) with Ashlie right now. I feel blessed with the way that things have gone. With an old year behind me and a new one in view I hope to make it all that I can. I feel that Ashlie has filled a part of me that has been empty for too long. I missed her the many years we were separated and feel that nothing could have convinced me that I would be able to hold her again. I thank the gods (or whatever is out there) for bringing a peace to me that no one could.

“When I hold her in my arms,
whether through the day or night,
when I just hold her tight,
I feel something that feels so right.

May life always be truly this,
what it is I have always missed.”

So life is well. I hope the same to all who have read this far, or just read a little, or not read at all. I hope everyone finds peace and love in their life. Now that I have rambled on and on in this little lengthy post I think it is time to put it to rest before I put myself to rest this wonderful night. Below is a poem that I have written. If you would like to jump to conclusions that by the nature of this poem that I am in some way upset, than read it again for not everything I write is about/for me or anyone for that matter. It is what I write when it flows from mind to hand. So on that note, enjoy:

“Hell Unknown”

It is through hell unknown,
through my ash, blood, and bones,
I crawl through the darkest depths
for my soul never rests.
And that is how I came to be,
all in all to which you see
The soul that walks forevermore,
a soulless soul upon the shore,
the shore of life to which I stand,
but the ocean shall disband
any hopes I hold with remise,
for a soul filled life won't meet my eyes.
And I shall stray from here to there,
I shall stray most everywhere,
for I will stray till the time comes,
when time itself becomes undone.

Oh yeah… Sham, I want you to honestly known that I am very content and happy with life and that I love you too, and hope you never truly think that our friendship is fleeting away. No matter where this life will take us, no matter what it is we have to live through, it is at the end that only the love we have matters. I do feel blessed to have you as a friend and hope that when I look back on it all to see everything life has brought; I can look back on it with you.

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Mon, 03 Jan 2005 15:34:02 GMT

I hope everyone had such a wonderful holiday season! Ah, yay for no school until January 24th, so much time off!!!

God... ripping CD's takes such a long time. Unfortunately I recently lost one of the drives on my computer, so it means I must replace a lot of what I lost and some of that being music files. But oh well, it could most definately be worse.

Life is going well right now, for all of those who would be interested in knowing. I had a really great new years and christmas, and on Christmas Eve I even got to go to the land of Oz and see the castle. Weeee? I have had so much fun in the last week, let alone month. I have suprisingly been spending more of my days away from the house, and make that nights too. I have just had so much fun chillen with Ashlie, Patrick, Chanda, and all the others too. Also, I fould that it is incredibly easy to get drunk off Champagne due to the bubblies.

Dreams can come and stay,
dreams can come and go,
but I shall dream the world away,
to hold onto what I know.

Now onto other things... I now have a difficult yet important decision to make. It seems that due to my EMT (Emergency Medical Technician) skills, I have been requested amongs others to travel to Indonesia and perform search and rescue tactics in the hardest hit areas and the mountianeous areas. The only problem with this is that I would leave roughly in about a weeks time and most likely not make it back in enough time for the beginning of classes at George Mason University. My education is extremely important to me so I don't want to miss it, but I really would like to help out in Indonesia as the help is needed and I am qualified to do so. I guess this is something that I will have to put a lot more thought to... any ideas?

So now that I have rambaled,
about all of that and this,
I request a simple notion
to obtain what I miss.
I ask not of wealth or fortune,
I need not those earthbound things,
for I know that through the heavens
I can fly with the love she brings.
So my request is simple,
I can recite it in my mind,
Oh God wherever ye may be,
let her love always be my guide.

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 04:18:44 GMT

Just thought I would give a quick update. Sham is back in town... yay! Though he seriously thinks I want to kill him. Well, enough of that... I am extremely thrilled with my grades this semester. I thought I was going to fail statistics and ended up with a B, which kicks ass. I pulled 2 A's and 3 B's, which also kicks ass. Weeeeee...

I am almost done with all my shopping this year... I need to get Patrick's gift and while I am at it pick up a gift for someone else who for the life of me I can not remember, shit, well I hope I remember soon.

Sometimes through the looking glass
are tales and stories made,
and with hope thus all will last;
these journeys shall not fade.
Yet within a mirrored show
we see reality gone a-miss,
but what life fails to know
is the truth found in a whispered kiss.
For if too close an eye does lean
up to that mirrored fate,
then like in a simple dream
one fades into life's hidden state.

Long Update...

Sun, 19 Dec 2004 16:47:23 GMT

Ho Ho Ho... I've been meaning to update this livejournal with all the things I have been doing, but I have been doing so much that I have but the time to do so, oh yeah, and I'm lazy about it too. Lets see...

I could look towards my life right and think that it is going well and looks to be getting better, but I wonder "How can this get any better?" For those of you who don't know, I am finally going to George Mason University (GMU), a more real college than NOVA... yay! And on a great note, all that time I spent at college wasn't a total waste... I finally am qualified to receive an Associate's Degree in Science of General Studies...woot! I am now an "edumacated man", ain't ya'll proud of me? For those of you who don't know as I post so little in here, I am a fully certified EMT (double woot!) and have been since mid November. The state test for that was intense as you could fail in the blink of an eye and I was not as prepared as I would have liked to have been for it since I was unable to fully practice... but I did great (as my EMT partner said) and I have been brushing up on my skills and facts so I can stay that way. Also, after the test I went out with a bunch of EMT's which kicked ass and was loads of fun. Well, this last week I've been finishing up my finals at NOVA and am awaiting my grades **fears statistics**... all of my tests went well except for statistics, but oh well. I have also kept myself busy by working out as always and that feels great cause as I have lost a total of 30 pounds and am getting trimer, but I most likely will not lose any more weight as I am gaining a good amount of muscle mass. Also, this week I have been helping out with the Fire Department doing Operation Santa. This is where someone dresses up as santa and the fire department takes him around and he passes out candy to all the kids. It was cool to do, even though I was santa the two times I helped out. The first time, Thursday, we walked around neighborhoods and then went to a Nursing Home for children and the elderly, which was slightly depressing. Most of the children could not even notice I was there as they were dependent on machines to live and the elderly people were so happy to see Santa but that too was depressing cause you could see it in their eyes. All in all it was a good time and Saturday night I did Operation Santa again and ended up walking around for three and three-quarter hours. Long night, but it too was also satisfactory to be helping out and my sister was there which really made the difference. So thanks Rachel, to a good night and then a good dinner.

Whew... that was a long rambal. Onto some more notes: I am friends with Peter again, though some of my friends don't like the idea because of previous events. Trust me when I say that I heed every warning I get, but it feels so good to have Peter back in my life as we were really good friends, and it is hard to find that type of friendship. I am enjoying life to the fullest and for one very very special reason in particular, or should I say special person. For those of you who know about my life, let's go back 6 years or so to a name we should all remember: Ashlie. With our eventful past I thought the idea of us ever being again friends was out of the question. So when we ended up finding that friendship with each other I was estatic. So now having all my great friends and having Peter back in my life and having Ashlie as a friend, along with all the great news of college and so on, I thought that life was looking great, but I was wrong... and boy was I wrong. Sometimes when you think that something can't get any better, life throws a curve your way and suprises you once again. So for those lovely individuals who have no idea to what on earth I am going on and on about... Ashlie and I are going out! WOOT!!! I can say with the world watching that if you ever told me that this would happen I would have thought you lost your marbles one too many times...

Sometimes someone so special
shall never fully realize,
their beauty and their wonder
seen through someone else's eyes.
So as the morning comes,
and the moon slowly sets,
with you in my locked arms,
there shall be no regrets.

So with a great life, many great friends (Patrick, Ashlie, Chanda, Harley, Sham, Peter, and so on), a great family (thanks to Rachel again), actual college, a very special someone (Ashlie) and many great opportunities to help people, this life is looking to be something amazing and something great.

So here's to many great times,
like those spoken in great rhymes.
With the sky at our feet,
oh a sky of something sweet,
that with all that we are,
we can go very far
and hold the moon in our hands,
for 'this' we understand:
When judged like we are
we don't have to see far.
For when we meet the end,
together, we'll do it all again.

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 04:38:23 GMT

"Sometimes I wonder, oh how I wonder, where this life shall go: Smile, for that is something that you shall never know."

"Kiss a Dream"

Have you ever woken
to a moment never spoken?
A moment without time
just lost in a simple rhyme?
A time we all desire,
lost in the heart of fire?
A moment to the extreme
where one can kiss a dream?
What more so if we kiss
something we surely miss,
which itself is an ever dream,
where truth and beauty stream
down a river of wonder
with calming dawning thunder
and the rain plays its beat,
a dream of hopes to meet.

So as the world turns
we have hopes and yearns.
But within a kissing dream
all of all can always gleam,
and for that I truly smile
for that dream is thus sessile.